Monthly Archives: October 2014

OMG Becky, Look at Her Butt….

It is…….getting smaller!  When I started on this journey, I promised myself that I wouldn’t live and die…errrr-quit by the scale.  Yes, the numbers are important to me, but it’s a whole life/body transformation.  Obviously, the numbers don’t lie and I do want them to go down.

Mondays are weigh in days for me.  Last week was a big week.  This week- lack luster.  I actually gained 2 ounces.  Now, naturally I was disappointed, but I know that I can’t let the disappointment hinder my progress.  I was doing a lot more weights this week.  My body is getting good exercise and I’m strengthening and building muscle.  So I chose to look at the other things that are moving in the right direction.

The number one thing is that I see one big booty getting smaller.  For those not following along- that would be MY big booty getting smaller.  Unfortunately, the ladies in my family are cursed with BBS (Big Butt Syndrome), so I don’t know that I will ever have a small butt, however, I can have a toned nice looking one.

I saw my dad today for the first time in a week.  He said that it looks like I have lost weight.  Also, I have noticed that my clothes are fitting better…. and maybe even getting a little big.  I know its always been said that the person losing the weight is always going to be the last one to notice it.

I have added a new goal to my list.  With fall and cooler weather upon us, all of my girlfriends are breaking out the boots.  My legs are still to big for me to find any that fit, but this time next year- well I’ll just start saving now.  I look forward to wearing some rock awesome boots and looking fabulous in them!

My Love Affair

You will find that as I go on this journey, I will talk a lot about my love affair… With food. I love food. I am also an emotional eater. I have a sweet tooth and I will eat any carb!

This is how I have gotten where I am.

I have a love/hate relationship with food. I love it so much but then I hate it because a lot of the foods that I love are horrible for me. I have slowly started to find alternatives for the foods that I love that are healthier. For instance, I have been craving pizza. I’m not a big pizza eater, but I like it every now and then. Thanks to Pinterest I found an alternative that didn’t have a crust! I used a couple of pieces of Canadian bacon, a little bit of pizza sauce, pineapple chunks, and 2% reduced fat mozzarella cheese. Bake this in a muffin tin and it’s like guiltless pizza. I also made buffalo roasted cauliflower today.

One thing that I have to come to terms with is that I am an emotional eater… Especially when I am upset. When I went through my breakups with my ex (many of you know they were messy and many!!), my first instinct was to turn to food. I’ve never met a cupcake I didn’t like! Although I consciously knew what I was doing, I physically could not stop myself. It’s like a drug.

I’ve been doing really well these last two weeks. I’m in a much happier headspace, so I haven’t had the urge to run to food. I have also cut soda completely. I don’t even have a craving for it. It’s amazing the things that we think we can’t live without, then realize we don’t miss it.

I think the biggest part of this whole journey is realizing food isn’t the enemy and I shouldn’t be afraid of it.

First Weigh In

My intention is not to update this blog every day, but I wanted to share some big news while I had a few minutes on my lunch break.

Since my last weigh in on 10/11, I have lost 6.6 pounds!!!! I was so excited when I got on the scale this morning!!

Thank you all for your love and support! I’m so glad to have you on this journey with me!!!

Goals

So many goals are in play during my weight loss journey. The first is obviously to lose weight. Duh! I need to lose 100-150 pounds. I’m giving myself a range because I’ve never been that small- well maybe when I was 8! I’ll know what my goal weight is when I get there, but 100 pounds is where I’m starting.

The second goal is that I want sexy legs! I have very chunky legs and cankles. I want to wear heels and feel awesome about the way my legs look. I also want to be able to go into any store and buy boots. I want to be able to wear those cute outfits that everyone gets excited about in the fall. (Except the Uggs! Anyone who really knows me knows that I have a very extreme aversion to those ugly behind shoes!)

My third goal is to learn to love running. I was watching “Extreme Weight Loss” a couple of seasons ago. There was a lady on there who ran a marathon through Paris at the end of her phase two. She said “When I started this journey, I decided that I wanted to love the thing I hate the most.” This resonated with me and has stuck me. I hate running and do not understand why anyone would find joy in it. However- I’m determined to solve the mystery! My BFF has decided I’m doing the Baltimore Half Marathon with her next October. That is a goal in itself!

The fourth, and final goal, for now at least, is to learn to be happy in the body I’ve been blessed with. I’m so thankful that I’m healthy and I have the opportunity to change my life for the better. Having been a “big girl” my whole life and having dealt with teasing and bullying- even as an adult- this will be my biggest struggle. This will be the biggest barrier to overcome.

I look forward to taking this journey and I’m so overwhelmed by all of the love and support that I have been given since starting this. All of your suggestions that help me overcome my struggles are appreciated more than you can ever know. I seriously have the greatest friends and family in the world.

My Journey Begins…

Yes, another weight loss blog… read it or not, I’m publishing this to hold myself accountable (and to stop blowing up everyone’s news feed on Facebook)!!

My name is Glynda and I currently weight 280 pounds.  At least a couple dozen gasps just rang out all over the country.  Yes, I totally just published my weight.  However, I’m going to go one step further- when I first knew I needed to lose weight, I weighed 291 pounds.  Yep, I pushed 300 pounds.  I say this not to because I’m proud, but because I can’t get past that number if I’m not honest about it.  I’m gonna struggle and I’m gonna have set backs.  However, I am completely motivated to do this for me.  I’ll give you all a little background on where I am now.

I have been overweight my entire life- or at least as long as I can remember.  I was active when I was younger.  I was always riding my bike, cheerleading or dancing.  I remember once that my mom and I were shopping for a matching outfits for a friend and I as we were dancing in the 4th grade talent show.  (Our dance to “Motown Philly” was AWESOME!)  Her clothes were still coming from the kids section and my clothes were in the teen section.  I remember having to go back and forth to see what we could find that would work.  Looking back now, it’s mortifying.

In college, I was became more comfortable in my skin.  I yo-yo’d in my weight but who doesn’t?  About 3 years ago, I went to the doctor just for a normal check up and I weighed in at 291 pounds.  Oh. My. God.  My doctor was very frank, lose weight or have surgery.  It was found that I have hypothyroidism (thanks genetics!).  Other than that, I’m completely healthy.  Surgery is not an option as insurance doesn’t pay for it and I certainly don’t have the funding to pay for it myself.

I’ve exercised on my own and I’ve done weigh watchers.  While I did have some success, I plateau’d at 260 pounds.  For some reason, I could not get past this no matter what I did- so I quit.  I still did some exercise, but there was always a reason to cheat or fall off the wagon.

I have recently come to a startling conclusion that I hate my body.  I. HATE. MY. BODY.  How can anyone ever love me if I don’t love myself?  I also have an addiction to food.  I will talk more about that later.

Two weeks ago, being newly back on the “single” market, I joined my gym- Chucktown Fitness.  So now I have a shiny new gym membership to a gym that I absolutely love!  (Seriously, this fat girl loves the gym.  Who’da thunk?)  I have a personal trainer who is fantastic.  Most importantly, I have a fabulous support system.  If you are reading this, thank you for being fabulous!

Follow along with my journey to “sexy”

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Photo taken on 9/25/2014